hUnGrY GhOst MoNth...

Finally the ghost month arrived....today is mark as the start of the ghost month according to the chinese calendar. Worst there'll be 2 ghost months instead of 1 =). Believe it or not guess you better watched out and stay in house as it's known as the month represents a connection between the living and the dead, earth and heaven as well as body and soul. Within this few days only, many sudden and unexpected death was reported.

Mon Jul 24 - Royal tragedy
Tues Jul 25 - Actor Hani Mohsin dies
Tues Jul 25 - Woman loses mum and hubby within days (really sad sad story)

Just walking back home today, I noted along the roadside sumptuous meals are offered to these ghosts, as well as prayers and the burning of 'paper money'. Looking up to the park nearby my place, there's lie this manson which believed to be haunted. I was thinking will "she" be back? , will I be able to capture "her" picture? Should I look out for her? (weird wondering).According to some source there was once a couple who lived in the manson. Knowing the husband had an affair she committed sucide and hung herself wearing red clothes (chinese believe this is a way a person who died can stay in the world to continue their "unfinish task"/revenge)

It's believed her spirit had been wondering about for years and it's been seen by many and even posted through some chinese newspaper. Some source even stated there's used to be a monk who prayed for her in late evening everyday so her soul may rest in peace.

Soon after the monk passed away, a temple was built there. To some it sounds really eerie...you ask me do I? Hmmmm at first I think so but my friend told me..the ghost is a chinese ghost so they will only hunt chinese and since I am Christian they won't know me (but I still look like chinese mar) kakakkakaka...after all he is Ch-indian and they don't know him too.

LyN gEt AwAy aT SiNgApOre

Some may wonder about my "missing in action" .....I've been to Singapore for a more then a week. Of course this is not my first trip but it just yet another trip here! Having lots of fun !

FrIdAy:
Arrived at Spore, got myself check through the custom, my sis n bro in law picked me up and headed home. Rested and started my 1st day journey.

Went to Causway point and get myself a minicure. Costing S$22 +S$8 (design). The service ain't that good compared to the one I got at Gurney mall. Too common here probably. Luckly I got it for FOC =) ~ my sis paid for it !!

At night spent S$17++ in Starbucks at Ochard...aiyah what an expensive meal...what to do my cousin pre-birthday celebration.

sAtUrDaY:
As usual my first intention is to visit Ang Mo Kio for my fav pig trotter aka "tu kah" ~~in hokkien ah..to respect the non chinese reading this I ain't gonna describe that in detail or have any other translation...just check out the pic to identified it.

Got caught up in traffic when heading to pick up my cousin (who don't eat "tu kah" or anything to do with "tu").Managed to snapped some pic while caught in the jam. Real long q. After picked up my cousin we headed off to Teck Ghee food court. This is where the best "tu kah" you ever find...yummy yummy....

Look for Eng Kee Bak Kut Teh stall. See what I mean, with those food award it got (pic above).
Errr...don't ask me about the "Bak Kut Teh" here. Never try that before. But if you love the taste of MSG then you may wanna try out. =) heard that is how the soup is like...

Total cost of our lunch = S$4 per bowl (excluded rice)

Next my 1st time visit to Jurong Bird Park ~~felt like never seen a bird before, guess I am the one that captured almost 3GB of pictures there...Get to "act" during the All Star Birdshow (me being the attention of the world) ~~Got another FOC admission ticket ...from my sis's co.

Admission+Pannorail ride (Adult =S$20&Child =S$10 (3-12yrs))
Admission (Adult =S$18&Child =S$10 (3-12yrs) : I would suggest you walk!!

Having a really really FUN Time !

Supper time : Went to Chomp Chomp at Serangoon Gardens Way....The food there NOT bad at all EXCEPT for the lime sugarcane juice...YUCKSSSS tasted more like a hand wash water for cleaning up serve after having seafood !

SuNdAy: BIG BIG BIG day for my Cousin...Sheryn "HaPPy BufFaLooo Day". Dine in at Grand Hyatt Singapore Hotel for Asia buffet...WOW cost my sis total of S$132.90

MoNdAy: Canceled plan to Sentosa (raining oh!) ended up Shopping!! Shopping!! Shopping & Shopping - Great SALES in Spore =)

At night went to visit another animal zone (Night Safari) (seems my whole trip this time is visit animals animals and animals) Been wishing to visit since few years back but never get it accomplish till this trip. Trust me!!! worth every visit. With over 900 noctural animals of 130 species inhabiting there and it's the first wildlife park with a night view. You got to explore all those animals with a close watch either through walking trails on foot or take a tram ride.

Eh mai siao siao it has been the winner of Singapore Tourism Awards' Leisure Attraction of the Year 6 times eh!! Just paid S$20 (entrance) + S$8 (train ride - adult) & S$4 (child : 3-12 yrs). You can enjoy the animal show too....hehe this time me not the attention of the show

tHUrsdAy: Skipped Tues & Wed ~~Shopping again Loh! Traveled to Geylang to satisfied our urge...wei what you thinking huh?? ~~ people went there for "Frog porridge" lar "Kong Po Tin Kai" in contenese. BESTTTTT...me too bzzz eating no pic available....kekeke

S$16 "Kong Po Tin Kai" + S$4 White porridge

Got some durians and mangoesteens back for late supper...Oh petua orang tua after eat durian need to take magoesteen to avoid too heaty...Never know this till my sis introduce to me =)

FriDaY: Continue my shopping spree...............at Orchard, Bugis, OG, etc etc etc.

SaTuRdAy: Last hour shopping at Jurong, then to Causway Point to filled our stomach with my fav toast...at Ya Kun Kaya Toast (Shit the owner does not allow me to snap any pic...hhmmm seems like many places in spore does not allow photography...KNS...scared ppl curi their idea konon)

So just managed to grab this...to identified it...Eh this one is a real good toast..LOVE IT!

9.30pm Leave Singapore on my business class bus...Cool..spend S$55 for the ticket....

DuCK....DUcK..gOn3 tOdAy (OωO)

&

leaved a ducky ducky

sweet duck prints in my heart !

mIssion AccOmplIshed

1100a: Woke up ~~ started to grab my laptop next to my bed...online saw my friend IM me during I am asleep kekeke ignore some of them (what I suppose to do, it's passed msg mah)
1130a: Still lazying on the bed, chatting with a frenz
1145a: Called up FL to see she interested to go Matta fair (don't put much hope in it ~~ she another mental unstable gal)
1147a: Toot TooT...received msg..(WOW real Fast =) ..when you least expect something you will awes get it haha)
FL:"Yea at home, where you want to go after matta fair?"
1150a: Exchanging sms...
1200p: Decided...going OUT
200p: Fetched FL with MY
230p: Have lunch (GOSH it's really a late lunch; MY was starving to death hehehe)
245p: Went to withdraw $
300p: Waiting outside the stupid maybank...some technicians repairing the machine
315p: Walked over to PBB to check my acct balance =( noted not much cash ....
318p: Still waiting for the technicians...
320p: Waited n waited n waited...get fedup, walked to the techicians
L: ecik, bila siap, lambat lagi ar?"
E: yeah yeah...lambat lagi
(shit...babi betul...tell ppl lar.....awal awal *mumbling)
330p: Droved off and went to Alliance Bank
345p: All machines DOWN ! (WTF...every machine oso down)
400p: Drove to PISA...(whole placed crowded with auntee, unclee, ah chee, ah ko....)
415p: Parked my car after turning n turning n turning up the darkeness multilevel car park....(what a sickening place....damn dark..)
420p: Went to "Brothers" ~~ check out the car player... recommended by a frenz
430p: Make up my mind...to get my player...(FINALLY...got a cheap -n- affordable player)

*Okay it's ain't superb as others..but I am REAL PROUD to have it...at least it had several basics functions (detachable, manual dimmer, direct track access,tuner, multi-color LCD, can play MP3, CD, and even it's anti shock.... hehehe at LAST I don't have to drive in peace !)

435p: Leaving to drove my car down for several "gina kia" to help installed ...some conversation exchanged .....
GK:Aiye how come you don't come see me, I can get comission mah
L:OhOh same lar now I see you oso get wor. Eh eh go n drive my car down lar..ah ee "bo lat"
GK:Aiye shud look for me earlier can get comission mah
L:Now same wor....
GK:Bla bla bla bla...
L:Okey...I go take myself lar..
GK:NVM NVM NVM...come come I go, where where to take
L: *snatched back the car key walked off mumbling.....ah ee oso u want to play play...
Several GKsss: Huh what you ah ee, bla bla bla...LOL.......(oh oh...at least me ah ee oso gina kia can teased teased n interested to make conversation..sure lot will say ppl wanna make business sure la enterntain u...WHO CARE...I syiok buleh la)

440p: Came down paid RM 400++ for this player...gee..POK KAI !
450p: Walked to the PISA hall.... KSN kena paid entrance fees RM2
500p: Entered the hall started to collect brochures and gifts....(Kiasu lar...sudah pay RM2 so need to collect as much possible mah...just to proof we too shown up at the fair)
600p: Journey end at PISA hall washroom.....

Proof I am at the wash room....with my baloon teddy
(Got this after begging the clown to do it for me kakakkakaa)

620p: Took my car...AGAIN gina kia...non stop teasing hahaahha...even wanna get my mobile....
L:Wanna get my mobile???
GK:Yah yah, you dont' give hw to find you ah?
L:Track me down with my car no plate oh...(ah ee try to raise her market value...CILAKA betul hehehe) ; Drove off .....to Penang road.
730p: Reached Penang road...parked the car ...(SHIT kena charge RM4 per entrance), heading towards the market...bought 5 packet of asam jawa...cost RM10 (not BAD)
740p: FL's stomach growling, (pura pura kok!- saja wanna eat) - ended up she gulp a bowl of all time fav PG road cendol
745p: Heading to our next destination....Sg Nibong bus station & BJ court
815p: Reached Sg Nibong bus station....got my ticket to Spore....cost RM50 lagi and left.
820p: Reached BJ....turning n turning n turning up to the multilevel car park again...(GOSH this time is better at least...it's brighter)
830p: Heading off to the mall...FL get her spec fix, MY got her self a pair of jeans n me...get my gift box....n card ..at last..all present ready for Mon

few samples of my own created earings..
okay okay it's not clear I know, will blog abt this once I get my a new digi cam ....

1000p: WOW it's 10p, we still stuck in the mall for the last rush hour search of FL's CDR...
1020p: Get out from the mall ...heading for Bayan Point..pheww gonna fill our empty hungry poor stomach
1030p: Dinner TIME..(yummy yummy yummy)
1130p: Stop by to joined the crowd for pirated DVDs CDs viewing(Eh...we ain't get any of it...we fully support ORI DVD & CD *cross my finger!!!)
1200p: Dropped FL & MY and bid both of them good nite.... (Left with happy and satisfied face...) 1215p: Reached home....take shower....n dropped myself to bed...

Mission Accomplished
for the day...=o)....smilingly snooozeed off to dreamland

L*Y*N befRiEnd KeNnY sIa

A happy Thurs morning <062906>...got a message replied from Kenny Sia...yes the one AND ONLY Kenny Sia...so this blog is a tribute to him the amazing, funniest, creative, hillarious blogger...name it whatever you wish...

He ain't a celebrity for those who "might not hear" about him (sounds silly...mostly would, I bet)

TO ME Kenny is more then a celebrities (check out his site and you would agreed wif me) .. *grin* I admit I would rather spend my buzzzy & quality time reading his news vs the actors & actress scandal!!!

You got to learn a GOOD deal out from it...Hehehhe...thinking of the CONDOM....he shared about kakakakkaka!! So take a look at this pic...to recognized him if you ain't know who HE is ...

Hmmmm guess I will send him another message to let him know.. to capture more n more n more n more pic, at least I have the options to choosed which one I like and paste it here...just to fit my blog space...and design..Huh!

Picture grabbed from http://www.kennysia.com/

FuNny mAlaYsiA nEws

Tuesday June 27, 2006

Incentives for marrying and converting orang asli

(100% effective way to increase the population+fully utilise "govt $")

KELANTAN will offer RM10,000 to each Muslim preacher who marries an orang asli woman and naturally converts her as part of renewed efforts to propagate Islam among the 3,000-odd community in the state.

State Religious Affairs committee chairman Hassan Mahamood (PAS – Tawang) said the same incentive was applicable if the preacher was a Muslim woman who took an orang asli husband.
Asked if the preacher may court the orang asli as a second or third wife, poor the MUSLIM WOMAN, NOT EARNING AS MUCH ! (>o<) uh...we might see another headline soon "MUSLIM WOMAN" allow for polygamy & are allow to marry > then 4 hubby...> Hassan said it depended on the individual.

The latest figures show that in the past five years, 2,904 of some 3,000 orang asli who reside in Gua Musang and Jeli districts, embraced Islam on their own free will. Hassan said the state government was unhappy with the conversion rate of the orang asli, who traditionally did not subscribe to any main religion.

Besides the monetary incentive, the preachers would also receive free accommodation, a four-wheel-drive vehicle and a fixed monthly allowance of RM1,000.

CONCLUSION: all the Muslim preachers need ONLY to marry 4 wives to make a living ...

my math calculation:

Muslim preacher marry 4 wives= get 4 car + 4 accomodation + FIXED MONTHLY SAL

To earn good living = sell 4 cars + rent out the 3 places...

Need I say more???

guYs....gUys...GuyS..

This is not suppose to be the blog of today....I should write "me-n-my-love" update vs this f***ing stupid-idiot-shit-bastard guy!! (ooppss sorry for all the xxx words)

I'm started to get phobia with word "guys" (okok admited NOT all the guy), just specifially for the @^$*@$@&$%&@$%@$% guy. Arrggghhhhhh !!! I am out of control. *breath in, breath out, breath in, breath out.....phewwwww... much better now.

FUCK!!! today am totally blank of how to express this..all I knew is I am feeling totally on fire, a hot burning fire inside!!!

I totally can't get it right no matter how many times I tried to get this brain thinking and pondering ..... how can guy simply came into your life in a sec and claimed they are so passionately in love with you, bringing along their thoundsand of promises and the I jump, you jump sweet talks BUT then within another mins......digging out the 101 reasons of "how good you are to them and they don't deserve you" then just stab u hard through the heart...and leave you bleeding to death!

It's been countless time I've been stab with the sharp knive YET...I never wake up *banging head on the pillow ~~not eh stupid to bang on the wall leh! Feeling really hurt this time AGAIN, it was like the history repeating it over and over again.

Am I the one that being foolish to love so deep? to give in so much ? and trusted a person so easily???? Come on...someone pluezeeeeee slap me will you!!! Juz wake me up for once and for all !!!

9 yrs back, the same thing happened, I have this close friend who betrayed me after sharing with her of my rship problems ...after 9 yrs now...I encountered the same feeling, though how much I wanted to believe, there's always a true friendship, which we get so often to wrote it during our schooldays....Friends forever, Friendship last forever bla bla bla...F***ing shit !!!

Guess throughout this life either I was being curse with the wrong guy or curse to trust people so easily ....to open up.... and share my whole fucking life with them...CILAKA BETUL!!

Blame not on anyone BUT myself....so GOD PLUESEEEEEEEE let the curse END here!

P/S: WARNING SIGN: "I like you or you are someone close I can talk too but anything is possible, but I'm warning you because I like you, I don't want you to get hurt so it should be no commitment at this time...it's like if i didnt like you i wouldnt' care attitude ~~translates into guy-speak as:

"Well, I fancy you and we could have sex but not in the market for a commitment right now, so don't get upset with me if we do have sex and nothing comes out of it."

"They didn't know what they wanted or who they were. It was an experiment to try and find that out"

"He still wants to fuck other people."

mY wEeKeNd OuTing

Saturday ~*~ went out for a dinner at paya terubung, ordered myself a "jawa mee goreng". First time eating the ever spicy jawa mee goreng....yum yum it tasted so good...was it coz of the chilli or no comparison to do =) .... After feeding the hungry stomach which just got 2 "siew pao" the whole day, feeling satisified, we headed off to Bayview Beach hotel for the night out at the beach..joinning the crowd for beach party cum World Cup viewing organized by the HITZ.FM...

Whole day was raining thought it won't be that crowded but SURPRISE!! FOC stuffs..what you think leh....

Being like..."katak di bawa tempurung" I was walking towards the beach with eye balls keep rolling left right, left right...hehee too many people in aka beach style there..too excited !

Entering the gate, gosh...guess who I met there...my "bootifuuuuuul" colleague..standing there talking over her mobile n GUESS what is she in....JEANSSSSSSSSSSS !! Oh NO NO ...thought this is a beach party... *better stop talking about her here... she might read this...or the other colleagues will (if they do, they better zip their mouth)

Strolling through the crowds, we trying to squeezed ourself thru to take a glimpse at the stage... a couple of DJ's was there...saw JLo, Joe, the 8Tv host (err what his name d) , group of the Hitz.fm ladies crew wearing bikini...=) dancing on the stage, BESTTTTTTTTT ! (of coz excluded the one in black bikini with the "body oil" eyeweeeeee) guess she suits more in the Tamil movie...some more non stop juggling her "bak yui" there...

The night was fun...dancing, singing and enjoying the breeze...we hang out till 1am+ ...before left, time to send our CINDERALLA home...THANKS guys for the night out. Mentang mentang lo ah yee long time no party or clubbing...this one will do also lo!

Sunday ~*~ Woke up about 1p (quite early eh) after I snoozed off at 5.30a on Sat.

Dragged myself out from bed,take bath, make a coffee and ate 1 1/2 "kuih balu" (is it the right term, err don't care la). Logged on to my laptop and started to work.

4.45p feeling hungry, IM my friend for laksa, went out at 5.30p, picked my friend one after another.....ended up NO LAKSA for the day =(. Running out of time for our TOKYO DRIFT movie...drove back all the way to BJ. We bought ourself a ticket...stomach started growling and making sounds...so we decided to grab McD before movie start.

Lucky day for the 4 of us, we get free chicken McDeluxe (2 eh). No different with the rest of greedy Malaysian.... (wei we have the blood flowing in us leh what you think ah) we kept it lar for our snacks later.

Of coz it's not me who took it..pray hard lar the one that ate it. Hopefully the stomach don't get upset tonight. =)

Opppsss I returned 1 of it to exchange for my McNuggets. Urged for it....so much!! so no choice though just swollen a set of chicken McDeluxe. What to do...my cholesterol level still not at HIGH RISK....heheeh proven report shown :

[ =) can enjoy more then McNuggets from now on!~~anxiously waiting for this report for almost 2 weeks, so pay back time TODAY]

7.15p get seated in the cinema...enjoy the relaxing time...watching the movie which nothing much then just a movie without a story but just cool shiny, loud, fast car and the most...cool chick..better then the one we saw at the beach !! Overall hands leg all up for this movie eh...

Bet...after this there'll sure be a Penang Drift at Teluk Bahang hahahaha =0)

check out the trailer at: http://www.rottentomatoes.com/m/fast_and_the_furious_3_tokyo_drift/trailers_player.php?IGNMediaID=1546452&playerType=videolarge

lots more about it at: http://myspace.com/tokyodrift

fAlLinG sIck AGAIN!!!

Yesterday & the day before:
Again falling sick and was out from work for 1.5 days. The whole body was totally exhausted, physically, mentally and emotionally tired. Went off to bed early about 8p+. Trying to get to bed then but the whole body was shivering and sweating, I felt suffocated and can't breath....my mind was blackout....I can't think of anything at all...

In the darkness, all that flashes through was the emptiness feelings, being alone and I kept drowning, drowning, and drowning in the pool of tears....for the first time after so many months I cried to my sleep AGAIN...

Today:
I woke up early in the morning feeling dizzy and weak, pulling myself out from bed, take a shower and trying to work. The head was so heavy I ended up lying on the couch and took 2 aspirin and snoozed off till late afternoon...

In the middle of my sleep, I was awaken by the sounds of the chime in my bedroom... outside the wind was blowing so hard....forcing the clapper to tune to it melodies, suddenlly it reminds me of the gift's owner...

I was listening to the musical instrument played by the little piper chime...the musical effect when strucked really creates a pleasant sound....remembering once I was told, the flute player actually symbolized happiness and joy and it's believed to bring prosperity and abundant too.....and I believed at that time this gift was meant for the purposes.

Somehow, somehow at that moment, my tears suddenlly rolled down...thinking was it really bringing happiness or just the other way...???

HuRt sO bAd

"Hurt so bad" ~~ my feelings since June 18. A day I shall rememeber for ever.

A day where I've been hurt so badly which a thousand words won't able to describe how this heart felt.

Mixed feeling of broken promises, trust, disappointment, betrayed....and MOST OF ALL feeling like a stupid person on earth.

Feeling like SHOUTING out to the world of how heavy this heart is...somehow everything just ended up in silence....... listening to this songs, it's just expressed my feelings at the moment.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~

灯光也暗了
音乐低声了
口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外阴天了
人是无聊了
我的心开始想你了

电话响起了
你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎么你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了
是你变了

灯光熄灭了
音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了
人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤了
我的心真的受伤了

"The future is unclear now. Instead of hoping for what it could be,
I will just wait and see"

i dRoWneD a LiZaRd ~~in memorial of "Lizzy"

Gee I was supposed to write this yesterday, but just waiting for another day to see what karma can happen to me !! =) *smiling sheepishly....Ok Ok I ain't a bad person..come on I just drowned a lizard. It's not that big deal as I used to know someone who will hit and killed it. Comparing it with him....

Yes....it may sounds bad of me, but who knows it might live after being flush of to the bathroom hole. After all no one know whether are they capable of swimming..

I have a frenz who really believe in karma and believe if she did something bad, she will experience the karma in a day...Guess at least I waited till a day to laugh about it, after drowned Lizzy yesterday while taking my bath..

Eh...Lizzy really scared the hell out of me when I saw it lazying resting at the bathroom sink.
I really don't mean to drown it, just teaching it a lesson...by splashing the water and make it swim...seeing it swim just make me feel funny kekekekke so I decided to drown it....=)

I did thought of saving it but it was too eeeeeeeeeweeeeeee to touch...and the most is, it's been upside down struggling through the water...then...thinking it might be able to swim so ...there it goes...to the hole

I did pray for it last nite...and even mourn for it. Hey...after all this blog was tribute to it...so guess it will RIP. Hmmmm wondering should I make this as Lizzy anniversary..

Dear Lizzy,

I may not sound apologetic of what I did but I really do felt sorry. Actually I did asked my wise frenz, will there be any reborn in next life....Oh he told me, I might be born as an animal specifially stated as "Kiam Hu" aka Salted fish in my next life so guess this life you are lizard then you will be borned as a human....so this ain't bad at all huh.... ????

So RIP larrr......

sEpt iS coMing......

How true is that I will be having a big turning....is it that co-incident or ????

The Bottom Line

Proof of your progress arrives. You're closer to the finish line than you thought.

In Detail

Get ready for some real proof of your progress to appear. Things have taken a turn -- a strong turn. The tough choices you've been making are paying off big time and people are taking more notice of the unique perspective that you bring to every conversation and meeting. Relationships are fading to the back burner of your life right now, but that doesn't mean that you're not in the thoughts of the people who love you. They are watching you soar and cheering you on.

wHiCh OpTiOns I hAve tO cHoOse???

What my Horoscope said about me 2day.......

Even if you don't feel one hundred percent sure, move forward. Luck is with you.

In Detail

Sometimes you just have to go on faith. You're at a crossroads right now -- and time is running out. You need to decide soon which way you're going, and you won't have the luxury of knowing all the information you want to know about your options. The good news is that you're in a very solid lucky phase, and your instincts can fill in the blanks and help you take a calculated risk. So even if you're not completely sure, go in the direction that just feels the most comfortable now.

Huh it's the worst decision to make though luck is at my side.... =(

fEeliNg sIcK & LoSt

Today am out from work, feeling sick...been in bed whole day. Migrane attacking me again causing me to vomit....and feeling uneasy...

Hate this kind of sickness. When it happened it's just grab away my energy and can't think straight. Leading to me feeling lost now...huh AGAIN??? I really seriously thinking, do I really have mental problem??? hahaha *sounds scary if anyone read this.

Lately been feeling lost again...anything just anything doesn't make me feel good at doing it, worst still I can't really bother about doing it at all....I keep pushing myself and reminding myself to try hard n harder to make life more meaningful yet it still doesn't work...what is happening here....???
Today I vow to at least carry out some of the following tasks:

- Continue to read the book which been meaning to complete it sometimes
- Spend time traveling home to see my parents
- Go to bed early
- Paint picture or anything I used to like
- Make some memories
- Exercise more, join dancing class or anything
- Spend more time with frenz
- Visit someone who is lonely....*guess I am the only one ppl shud visit
- Find time for myself
- Just sit and listen to music...best still enrol in guitar class
- Get a massage
- Seek out forgotten frenz
- Sleep under the stars..spend whole nite at beach
- Laugh a little...
- Laugh a little more...
- Apologized for being too busy
- Swim
- Speak about love, build my trust in it
- Befriend silence * MOST IMPORTANT
- Watch sunset/sunrise
- Baked/Cook anything... *only if I know hahahaha
- Get a group of frenz together for a cup of coffee and hang out
- Traveling to places I longed to visit...

- Take scuba diving classes.....

Huh the list can go on n on n on...but will I ever get any of it in action....???? =(

heY...dO i LoOk liKe I'm mArrIed wIth KiDsss????



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fInalLy....

It's 3.10a...finally I got all my blog transfered here. Gee it's really tough having to cut and paste all my previous posts from a different template and having all the alignment running out.. =( and getting my fingers feeling numb.It tooks me so many days to finally get it all here phewwwwwwww.....

*yawn, my eyes is dropping yet still forcing it to open wide just because today it's gonna be the end of my long weekend...tomorow back to work argghhhh thinking of it make me feel sick !! The weenkend seems to passed by faster then I thought, though have another xtra day off, somehow still don't even get enough rest !

GOSH just hate this STUPID company which makes me
feeliing SUCKS all the time !!

JuNE 1st

June 1st...what a good start of the month..the day which I will never forget, the most funniest and humiliated day in my entire life ! Hahahaha thinking of it now even make me giggle! Silly me...

It's the day "Sean" is being recognized by my whole "8" geng !

Sean was having his first new hair cut (He really looks weird and funny) and as usual I was updating a frenz of mine of my so called "my love". And just right during lunch time, they came to pick me up and being my usual self I was complaining about how the hair cut does not suit him and even worst with him wearing PINK colour shirt.....and bla bla bla...aiye as usual also none of them was paying attention to me...I supposed lah..till..we reached our destination.

*Thanks GOD for arranging this...as we came out from the car, there was "my love" with his bunch of frenz. Even worst was 1 of my frenz happened to know him....GOSH ! There he shouted "hey buddy, what happened to your hair..." On the spot, another frenz of mine noted he was wearing the PINK colour shirt and straight shouting "OMG...don't tell me he is your love" SHIT.....paaaaaaaakkkkkkk there goes my hand on my frenz back and me jumping hysterically like a monkey...the hit was so loud that everyone sitting there was staring at me...blushing...(the worst impression to the crowd and most of all...Sean)

I was cursing myself the whole day for being so chatter box else none of this will happened.The worst is yet to come....without even realizing that actually my frenz don't quite get it that he is the one, even after the lunch time incident, I again..being too talkative...IM my frenz and asked how can he knew him and bla bla bla....then only to realized he was blur on the topic but it's too late...I have revealed my own secret ...the rest is history till NOW!

Lesson learned that day ....SILENCE IS GOLDEN!!!!

sEan wHo???

=) "s.m.i.l.i.n.g" a good start to write this blog. Those reading this will surely feel the sunshine happened in my life lately....opps probably should put as today only. It may go away by tomorrow probably ( mentally not stable ~~ what my frenz labeled me as)

Ok forget about my mental state...the topic here is more on *Sean (name had been changed to protect the individual privacy)...

"Sean..."unconciously this name had distracted the happenings of my day since his existance few months ago. Where he came from? Have no idea, he just suddenlly appeared in my life and guess I just realized it lately !!

Where ever, when ever Sean around, I am simply unable to concentrate enough to engage in every task I am doing, there's something unexplainable with this connection. I don't know exactly why but it's just felt amazing and it's even make the difference to the way I breathe each time.
There are days when I would like to spend the scared hour taking a quiet time to just focus my attention to him. It is often at this times that I find my soul wondering into his world and he being the center of the thoughts.

Slowly allowing all other thoughts to flow out of my mind and over few mintues my mind is able to still and the only sound heard is the pounding of my heart beat. There's a joy inside me and I felt like a kid jumping up and down when they are given sweets or a new toy to play with.

What suprised me the most was the cause of this happening. All the hard day encountered before me is gone....nothing seems to matter anymore. I'm fascinated with the feelings Sean can implant to my daily life. By the end of the day...my face will be shine with the S.M.I.L.E which he and only him can make it happens.

*Gosh I felt I am like "young teenager" who just had a crush...or was it LOVE?

hAPpy MoTheR's DaY

"Happy Mother's Day means more
then have a happy day.
Within those words lie lots of things
We never get to say.

It means I love you first of all,
then thanks for all you do.
It means you mean alot to me,
And that I honor you.

But most of all, I guess it means
that I am thinking of
Your happiness on this, your day ,
with pleasure and with love.

How much I love you I can't say:
it's more then words can hold.
You're all at once my rich, red clay,
My potter and my mold.

Yours the words that shaped my voice,
the spirit within me.
Yours the will that shaped my choice,
My fortune, and my sign.

How lucky I was to have had you
At the core of me!Wise and good,
you always knew
Just what I could be.

And so I came to be someone
Whom I could be proud of.
For this I give my swollen sum
of gratitude and love

Mama..haPpy MoThEr's daY ....

WiShing yOu tHe WoRLd haPpIneSs No mAtTer WhERe U arE!

1 mOre trY

Tonight is a silent night, there's barely any sound except for the songs "One more Try" playing over the radio...a song of a lovers who give up and been through and now seeking for a chance to give each other one more try on the love they gave up....

The song keep me thinking, trying out again on a lost love..........

Will it still be the same as it used to be?
Will it be a good start or just another mistake after all?
Will it leads to another hurt ?
Will it leads to another pain?
Will it leads to another lost ?

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